Well okay so I am in love, but not how I feel right now. I feel...ugh...let's just say not the greatest. I feel so wierd I can't even explain it. Yeah not like many people care or read these, but tis a good place to vent even if no one reads this. No one is available to talk to right now. I haven't wrote one of these things in forever. Anyways back to me venting. I dunno why but I feel like...like...a little kid looking at a bike through a store window. Except it's not as happy as that little kid is. I feel useless, like I can't do anything right. I feel so alone, and I guess my parents telling me that 9 out of 10 times my friends don't think about me doesn't really help my lonliness feeling. I wish I could talk to someone right now. I wish my phone would ring and I could just talk. A lot of things are going through my mind...yes that may sound like I'm making a joke but I do go through a lot of thoughts. I can think about many different things at once or one thing really fast. And I just need to clear them. I need to tell someone I love them, and show them. I need to be there with them. Wow I just realized I'm a really needy person. Hmmm...that's not really a good thing is it? Yeah well it's the Fourth of July and for some reason it hasn't been quite the best of days. This actually has helped...I feel...less of whatever I felt earlier. Of to go use my phone and see if anyone is up to talk to or if I can wake people. Probably not the latter, I don't like waking them. Thanks for reading this...not sure why you would, but if you did thanks.